Yoga With Kelly

Lately I've been struggling with my disdain for most people. It bothers me that I am having such a hard time liking other people in society; outside of my friends, family, and coworkers and that is already a small group. There has to be a reason I am feeling this way, right?! So I took some time to think about why I am feeling this way... I pondered on some questions... Why am I finding it so hard to like the rest of society? I am a  genuinely nice person. I lend a helping hand when I can. I work hard. For the most part I follow the rules. But I will admit I bend them every now and then... So  let me elaborate. The other day I was walking along the street after just getting my coffee and breakfast. I passed a gentleman walking in the opposite direction, I gave him a smile (as I do to every person I pass). He simply just kept on walking with a smug face. Wow, kind of soul crushing. Is this how we want to treat other people who are being kind to us? No wonde...

For the past couple of weeks I have been feeling pent up with anger, stress, and a constant nagging chronic pain in my shoulder that just won't leave me alone. I'd dealing with a lot of tension coming from work, struggling to find my passion there and a scheduled that was demanding more time from me than I could give and it was slowly starting to chisel away at my spirit. I was being broken down and all that was left was anger and resentment.  I found myself constantly complaining about things and then turning around doing the same things I was complaining about. I was often asking myself 'What are you doing?' 'What is wrong with you?' I struggled with these questions for what seemed like weeks. I couldn't get a handle on anything. I was slowly falling a part. I often have conversations with myself, back and forth, like talking with a therapist but the conversation is just between me and myself.  I will break everything down. I will ask myself question...

What led me to yoga teacher training and some of the best weekends of my life was a journey that I never dreamed my life would take. Due to a series of events I ended up in YTT, as we yogis like to call it in January of 2017. I had made a move from my home in Florida to a friend’s house in Ohio. I quickly began a job at a day care as a preschool assistant. Later on I was promoted to lead teacher. Then another year down the road I was in yoga teacher training with Carrie Treister and a wonderful group of other trainees. The weekends were long, I learned a lot about myself, and there was so much yoga. I was in yoga nirvana. When I began teaching preschool as a lead teacher I fell in love with teaching. I had people asking me why I didn’t go get my teaching certificate. At the point yoga had become increasingly more active in my life, a more important part of my life. Shortly after I took over lead teaching I was asked to teach the children a yoga class once a week, that was 4...